I'M BORED.

Is really really bored.

Nothing to do everyday.

My daily schedule is like : wake up, settle myself, lunch, watch tv/play game, dinner, tv/game, sleep.

This is my day.

Everyday like that.

I skip my breakfast everyday because I wake at noon, therefore, I straight away having my brunch.

I have downloaded many kind of game to kill my time.

But I like this kind of life because I seldom have time to say bored once the school reopen. 

No matter how, just enjoy mine bored sembreak =)

Christine . Wong

5:54 p.m.

21/12/2015

Here come to the end.

Although knowing the truth is hurt, but better live with a question inside my heart.

We are totally not suit to each other from inside out.

But is glad to meet you.

Even though that is a big mistake that I ever make, but is good that I learnt many thing from you.

Thank you again and for the last.

Sorry for the last.

Christine . Wong

3:07 a.m.

22/12/2014

BUSY

A word that make me sensitive to it.

A word that make me flashback many memories.

I use to ignored by my ex-bf in my past relationship.

He use to tell me that he is busy doing his homework and assignment.

I am the one who always waiting for his call or message.

But I also the one who call him or message him first at the end.

He use to forget that I am exist.

That relationship already past.

There is no need to make me keep flashing back.

So I need to put it down or bury deep inside my heart.

Let bygone be bygone.

The quote I always told myself.

He just a past tense and never will be the continuous tense anymore.

Just let it be.

Christine . Wong

12:32 a.m.

22/12/2014

Is holiday now.

Well, I will celebrate and enjoy my holiday with trying new thing.

Spend more time with my family and my baby hamster.

Family is very important to me.

This also the second times that I having my sembreak without him.

He is now enjoy with another girl.

Hope he will enjoy the decision that he has make.

She is not the type of girl he really want, she just bump into him while he is weak.

She are the control freak type.

Soon, he will control by him.

Now, she thought that he will always be the back up of her.

Therefore, her ego are getting increase day by day.

She not only control him, she will continue use his power to control the whole gang.

But I believe that all of them will be clear about the situation.

Only him will be blind and love her very much.

Hey boy, she is not the type that you like.

Somewhere in outside of the world, there would be a girl who are waiting for you.

Trust me, she was just use you and use her power to control you.

She are the one who take granted from you now.

watch out boy.

Christine . Wong

3:23 p.m.

16/12/2014

Well.

Here is my personal space and of course I do have the right to post whatever I want.

I didn't list out your name or your nickname.

So do not think that my post is writing about you.

You isn't that important for me to concern about you all day long.

I am very welcome you have pay a visit to my blog.

But here some house rules.

Please do not complain or think that my words is all about you.

I can write whatever I want whenever I like.

I do not need to get any permission from you or anyone else.

So do make it clear now!

If you want to pay a visit.

Just keep you mouth shut or your hand stop after read my blog.

Otherwise, I am not welcoming you to have a visit to my blog and have any comment about my words.

Sorry for the inconvenient and thank for your cooperation.

Christine . Wong

30/11/2014

10:53 p.m.

"Screw you!"

That's all I want to tell you.

There is no big deal when you appear in my life.

But when you start to do all that tiny act behind me or infront me to my ex-boyfriend.

Everyone already know you are what kind of girl is.

Please do not pretend that you are pure.

I bet that are many evil idea in your little tiny mind.

Please stop all that act.

He already belong to you.

You and him already non of my business.

I won't mind you talk any bad about me infront of your boy.

That is mean that my life are more exciting and fun compare to yours.

Oopss..! 

Do not forget you will have the chances become his girl is because that time he is down and need someone company.

So do not think that you have the influence power to make him become yours.

Sound harsh.

But that is the truth I guess.

HAHA XD

Time flies, People change.

He are that kind of people who not willing to change for anyone else. 

So girl, here some advice for you.

Bare with him, no matter how. 

You will understand why I write like that.

Good luck. 

But.

SCREW YOU TOO.

Christine . Wong

29/11/2014

3:46 p.m.

I already gone through many from the pass till now.

I have already learnt many from the pass till now.

I always live for today and do what I like for today.

I worry there is no tomorrow for me, so I appreciate a  lot in Today.

I keep saying I MISS YOU to someone I love in a day.

Cos' I worry there is no tomorrow for me.

I admit him, Kang wai seng, my beloved.

Although he have many weakness on him. 

At least he will listen to my advice and make his weakness become his merit.

Better than those who are not willing to listen others advice and think they always right.

That is the biggest lie in the world.

People cannot lie at you always, only yourself can. 

Actually, there is no any LOVE on you anymore, people need memories.

To flashback how they survive till now. 

I won't reject or neglect to flashback those memories.

That is part of my life and I have already gone through it.

Although it is hurt, but at least I have it.

I lost the people who build the memories with me. 

But at least I still have those memories. 

I didn't lost everything.

I am glad to have those memories.

You are now have a happy life with your girl.

So just live it up.

Maybe sometime I will have look of your profile to see how your life going now. 

But that is an act of friend, not a lover anymore.

No any evil intention, just want to know how are you.

That is it.

I feel happy that you will start to protect the one who means something to you.

But feel so regret that wasn't me anymore.

No matter how, stay happy and sweet with her.

And the most important is, you know what you are doing now.

And know she is the one for you.

Better dun be like us, how we start and why we will start is just a question.

An question with no answer.

If you realize that she just bump into your life when there is an empty space in your heart.

Just stop this relationship.

There are someone who deserve her more. 

Just think properly and clearly.

Are she the one for you?

Good luck to you.

Christine . Wong

28/11/2014

4:03 p.m.

Sometime I wonder why relationship can be so fragile. 

It can be destroy by any factor.

I may not be the perfect one, but I know I am the worth one for you to keep in the heart.

I treat everyone of my friend with true heart.

I didn't want any return from you all.

But just a small matter already can destroy our relationship.

At first, I have wonder is it the problem is on me.

So, I took the initiative to date you for a lunch or dinner, but you reject me.

May be you cannot accept what I have done.

But if you are a true friend for me, you definitely will understand me.

But you not, you definitely will stay far from me and never have any contact with me. 

Friendship

A kind of relationship that we need it to live in the society.

It is fragile and easy to get hurt but still you need it so badly.

christine. wong

27/11/2014

4:21 p.m.

我想你了.

彬 笔

二O一四 年 十一 月 十四 日

六时正 晚

放下过去 重新来过 

我知道呀

但就是输在不甘心

一时冲动换来终身遗憾

我不后悔

只是需要时间适应

以往你不让我和你做的事情

而你却允许她这样做

公平吗 

我自认不曾为你付出很多

但我要求的会很过分吗

过去了 就无需纠结

但我就是不肯认输呀

贱人 我见得多

但就是没看过像她那样贱的

请问你妈生你出来是让你做小动作破坏别人吗

慢慢的放下 或许对我最好

放眼望去 我还有很长的路要走
还有很多属于我的故事等着我去写
天天提醒自己
不要为了这些小事纠结而不开心
要知道 我还有很疼我的家人和男友
还有很好的姐妹们
我很幸福
所以要知足

生气一下就好了
不甘心也就让它一下好了
身体要紧
不要为了这些小人而破毁了自己的心情
浪费了许多秒的快乐

彬 笔

二O一四 年 十一 月 六 日

八点三十分 晚

I really trying hard not to miss you

I really trying hard not to keep text you

I really trying hard not to disturb your daily life

I really trying hard not to care about you so much more

But...

I failed to do that

I miss you 

miss a lot

really a lot

I wish to know what are you doing now

I want to be part of your life

I care about you

You...

let me feel that I am unnecessary

let me feel that I am always disturb you 

let me feel that I just a people who will think when you are free and alone

Nothing to scare about lonely

but, when you already have a lover

and the feeling of loneliness will make you fell weak 

I know I always messed up thing

but I already try my best not to messed up

I really try

but 

do you know I am trying?

obviously

you didn't know at all

I have feeling too

but do you care?

I miss the feel that when you will care bout me

the feeling you will ask how I feel today

the feeling when you worry that I have take my meal or not

the feeling you put me at first place in your heart

the feeling when you "manja" to me

the feeling you talk joke to make me laugh

I understand you will spend your time with friend 

I understand friend is lot more important to you

I understand they are your family 

I understand you care about them

but how about me?

do you spare some time for me?

do you remember me?

do you ever think about me even if I didn't give you any message?

do you ever worry about my feeling when you spend the whole day with your friend ?

do you ever text me automatic except for the "morning"?

I miss you all the time

but would you miss me too?

Everynight 

I am thinking 

why I need to be cry under the blanket and no one to be share ?

and why you will so enjoy and happy with your friend ?

why I need to be so sad and you be so happy?

so unfair!!!

I have try consider before

what if we try to separate for three years?

will everything be ok ?

or 

we will getting far and far far more?

everything will be different after three years right?

Time flies, People change

do I need to take that step?

do I need to take the risk ?

do I need to consider it?

You are the one I love the most..

but you dun know how to take care of my feeling at all..

I am not angry..

I am just feel sad..

I always find the chance to stick with you not because I want show off that I have a good bf..

I just enjoy the time together with you..

but you seem like do not like I go out with you alone..

You like to go out with a gang of people..

I know you also not the one who know romantic..

but can you try to learn romantic just for me?

Or I not worth for you to learn romantic?

YOU are the reason why I become stronger and confident, 

but still,

YOU also my weakness.

I wish to go Zoo Negara with you only..

I wish to go travel with you only..

I wish to do all the thing with you only..

I know you have friend...

But do not forget..

you have me too..

unless I not mean anything to you..

=(

I am not okay at now right now~

But I will be fine soon~~~~

I dun want a boyfriend who only will listen for what I say ~

I want a boyfriend who will respect what I say and give some respond on it~

Is that very difficult?!!